Epiphany of a gray haired college student
I'm old.
Okay, I'm 48-years-old, and attending college
for the first time. And while some in this universe might
say, "Hey lady, you've missed the boat, take a load off,
" I tend to favor those around me who think attending
school, gray hair and all, is a pretty great thing.
When I complain about not being able to retain
information, they say, "But look how much wiser you are!"
When I wish for more time with my grandchildren
they say, "Look. You need to spend time with them, so
balance it. Are you trying for that ridiculous "A"
again?"
They would be right, of course. That "A"
keeps the scholarships coming; keeps school free, at least
in the finance department.
So, what's wrong with a "B"?
Nothing. Everything. Okay, when I was in high
school I didn't get good grades. I felt stupid and thought
that college was for smart, nerdy folks who didn't have a
life. I wanted a life so I didn't go.
Now I'm richer than some and poorer than most.
A college education in my younger days would have been a great
thing.
Of course, I try not to think about that. I
try to remember the positive nudges from family and friends
who know how tough this is for me; who know I will get a job
after all of this that will actually pay me closer to what
I'm worth. Yes, that would be beyond minimum wage.
I tell them I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
They smile. After all the late nights, saying
"no" to various engagements and pretty much not
having a heck of a lot of room in my head to think about much
else but homework, tests, and lack of sleep, they probably
see the light too.
I graduated May 2009 with a BS in Mass Communication
with an emphasis in Journalism and Public Relations and a
minor in Creative Writing.